Well, been awhile. But sooner or later, if people are talking about
MPD on Soc.Subculture.Bondage-BDSM, I'm likely to hear about it, seeing
how "out" I am about that in my life.
Having read through the threads on this issue, I must say, I can't
recall being insulted in quite so many ways in such a short period of time.
So to keep things simple, I'll deal with the issues, one by one...
Repressed memories: ... It's a recognized phenomenon, has been for
decades [in the concept of traumatic amnesia, as characterized by phenomena
such as "shell shock"] - just as long as you aren't talking child abuse,
incest, government mind control or satanic ritual abuse. If those issues
come in - why then, it's False Memory Syndrome. (rolling eyes)
MPD doesn't exist:
"I've never seen a clinical case of it."
"Have you looked for one?"
"No, it doesn't exist, in my opinion."
Never mind this being a political position - this is a religious
Besides, O Great Guru, what makes you think anyone would be dumb
enough to tell you? Up until quite recently, disclosing as multiple in
any sort of clinical setting was a ticket to a rubber room and ten years
of misery whilst your therp polished their reputation and publication list.
Attention Seeking Behavior:
So what the fuck is wrong with THAT? And don't you think that someone
intelligent enough to devise dozens (or more) separate personalities, with
distinct characteristics and ways of thought, could figure out a more productive
way of doing it?
Of course, nobody says Frank Gorshin or Rich Little or Edgar Bergen
were "Just Seeking Attention."
And to the gentle creature who suggested that I should just not have
sex or, God forbid, PLAY with anyone until I was "better"; words
fail. But you would have fit right in as a mental health professional around
the early part of the century.
Why don't you neuter ALL the abnormal people, while you are at it?
Wait, you are here talking with us, along with a HOST of homosexuals, lesbians
and perverted deviants. ROLL IN THE CATTLE CAR, HORST!
About MP being a "mental illness." It ain't. It's an adaptive response
to trauma, generally seen due to abuse, but I know of one case brought
about by severe autism.
Generally, MP people function better than "normal" people
would, given the level of trauma they endured. And from all my contacts,
I can tell you one thing - while we may be consistently lousy at handling
consistency, give us a crisis and boy howdy, we do keep our heads
when all about us are losing theirs and blaming it on us...
The problems come - the "D" in MPD - when the trauma passes and the
mind is already patterned to handle that level of stimulation. The rules
change and there is absolutely no learned basis for dealing with any sort
of normal reality.
Of course, that's true of any abuse survivor. But people don't think
of it that way, even when the prisons are filled with the results of people
made incapable of living in society by years of trauma.
Or in other words, the disorder isn't being multiple, it's being
abused. Multiplicity is a response some of us were lucky enough to summon
up. As a result, a fairly decent percentage of us have lead absolutely
remarkably productive lives in spite of stuff that would gag a maggot.
Is MP over diagnosed? Sure. It's fashionable. But it's also under
diagnosed. Because it's only fashionable in some circles.
Me, I've never been diagnosed. I just realized I likely was, tried
out the idea, found that behaving as if I were multiple gave me
a degree of stability orders of magnitude better than I had while trying
desperately to be like everyone else, so I decided that any idea that useful
just had to be true.
I also have a healthy skepticism as to the value of a "professionals"
opinion. Because, when you think of it, who's the expert here? Should I
value someone's view of what my reality really means than my own
view of what it is? [snort] I think not.
I do value professionals and their opinions. But I also know that
the question is often quite academic to them. Me, it's an everyday practical
reality and one that I consciously use, manipulate and exploit to the best
advantage possible. Look at
my art sometime. See how many distinct and separate styles there are
But gloriously multiple as I am, and being fully capable of arguing
with myself and losing, I never have and never will disavow the actions
of one of me. If I did it, I own it. Mind you, if I don't know I did it
I want some proof that I did.
I've had people jerk my chain this way, from time to time, knowing
I was dissociative and often misplaced memories. But if I trust you enough
to take your word - then definitely, I'll assume responsibility for what
I said or did.
In closing, I don't think of being MP as being a problem. All the
supposed problems attributed to it strike me as being more properly attributed
to such traits as immaturity, irresponsibility or actual clinical mental
illness, such as schizophrenia, chronic depression (Hello, over here, wanna
see my pill collection?) or some other actual chemical imbalance. Try living
with someone with hyperactive adrenals some time...
Anyway, as it is a coping mechanism, you ARE going to see it a lot
in people with mental illness. And you are going to see it a lot in people
with other personality disorders. And you are going to see it in other
abuse survivors. But you are never going to see it in the general population.
Well, why the hell would anyone who was functioning perfectly
well go in to be officially diagnosed?
Personally, I think there are a lot of multiples who are perfectly
normal and have never really thought that the way they think and cope with
things is in any way different from the way other people do. And why should
it occur to them? For that matter, why should it matter? For that matter,
how the hell do I know how many personalities any one of you has?
Ever shook hands with a personality? Gotten a DNA sample? Lifted
fingerprints off a glass? Of course not. I have to take your word (and
the evidence of my senses) that any of you have a personality at all.
Of course, you might just be SAYING you have a personality, and just
making it up to get attention.